Called

A strange thing has been taking place in my life... A radicalization. Christ is moving strongly and firmly through me... it's quite an unbelievable feeling.
Nothing feels the same anymore... literally nothing. The things that used to draw me to them don't anymore... It's like I can finally see clearly. I know many of my friends are having trouble understanding this... and I don't quite know how to explain it... To them, I've always been "guy obsessed, goofy, over-reactive Shelby". Now I'm changed.
As I've been pondering what to do with my life and where I feel God is leading me... I always keep coming back to mission work. I've felt called to mission work for almost a year now. I've never known why, or where, but I've felt drawn.
Here I need to add detail about a specific area of my life that I looked back on today and realized had changed... children.
I used to not like children that much... I never babysat, never had cousins or siblings that were a lot younger than me... never had to deal with small children, so I was uncomfortable. I always thought, "I know when I have my own kids I'll love them, but other people's kids... not so much."
Lately though, I haven't been able to keep my heart from melting when I see them. So much potential rides in each one of those little people... they're so innocent.
In Sacred Singleness, there is a testimony from a missionary named Karris who lives and works in an orphanage/school in Haiti. I went to the website listed danitaschildren.org and read some of the childrens' stories and the mission there and fell in love. I truly believe that I am called to minister and help children in situations like that.
He has called me RADICALLY. I honestly can't even imagine just marrying someone straight out of college and settling down in suburbia now... there are MILLIONS of people all around the world that haven't had the chance to hear His word... there are children that need to be rescued and cared for. How can I just ignore that?
I am willing to give up EVERYTHING for Him and this calling. Every comfort I've ever known... every person that I depend on.
It's been pressed upon my heart. I can't wait to see where He takes me. Please pray that He'll provide me with guidance as I venture further into this. :)
-Shelby :)