I'm so wasteful... I just ate a row of oreos and took off the tops of all of them and just threw them away. I pour out a bottle of water if it sits beside my bed for a couple of days. I stand in the hot shower for over 30 minutes every night.
And yet around the world, people are dying from starvation, unclean drinking water, living in filthy conditions, watching parents, siblings, children die.
Oh Lord, I want to be Your hands and feet to these people.
I want so bad to move to one of these third world countries. To remove myself from the cushy upper middle class America I've lived in my whole life. To not waste my days texting and checking social networking sites and throwing my life away to the internet. I want to make a difference.
I will one day. Hopefully. One day after I graduate.
But for now, I just feel stuck and guilty and helpless. Helpless to help those who need it.
How can I stay here knowing that thousands of people around the world have not even heard the word Jesus? It's so easy to get caught up in those immediately surrounding me who HAVE heard and chose to ignore.
I used to want to get married right out of college and live in suburbia forever. And there's NOTHING wrong with that... but something has been pressed on me... I've been called.
Most of these starving, sick, dying people have lost hope. I want to bring them not only the physical things they so desperately need, but also news of the Rock they can count on always.
Pray that I can be patient as I finish college. I know these years of education will prove important, and they're not a loss. It's hard, but through Him, all is possible. I reread Romans 8:28-39 and was knocked back into a place of amazement.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
More Than Conquerors
31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written: “For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
-Shelby :)
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