Romance

Tonight I was sitting out on our back porch as dusk fell and rocking in one of our two rocking chairs, enjoying the sounds and smells and feel of summer. Dusk is my absolute favorite time of day... there's something so peaceful and quiet and final about it.
My mind started to wander and soon an ache hit my heart... the one I fight down so often... the want for earthly companionship. Looking over at the empty rocking chair to my side, it was so easy to imagine him there... whoever he may be. It's times like these when I feel cheated that I can't know my husband NOW and start sharing parts of my life with him NOW, if I'm meant to get married. Every time I feel so happy in a moment, I long for him to be there to share it with me.
And whenever I start longing for that, I feel guilty and angry at myself. Why am I not happy with the Lord's companionship? Is it not good enough? He's the LORD. He has given me a million times what any earthly man will... and my mind always says, "You need something tangible- a hand to hold, a face to gaze at..."
That's true... I do want that. But tonight as I looked around at all of the things I was enjoying before my mind started to wander- the slight balmy breeze, the faint sound of crickets, the dimming of the sky- I realized that those very things are what He uses to romance ME. The ultimate Bridegroom cherishes me and provides all of those things I long to share with a man... all along I could've been treasuring those moments with Him... thanking Him for His beautiful gifts.
You've opened my eyes Lord... no tenderness compares to Yours.
-Shelby :)