The Summer of Getting By

So, it's been awhile since I last wrote. I won't lie and say I haven't thought about writing a few times, but honestly my heart wasn't in it. Tonight I feel God has nudged me to pick up the virtual pen and get back into the game.

This summer... has been good. I've been happy and surrounded by family and nothing bad has really happened and I can't complain by a normal standard. I've kept in the Word- thought sometimes I hurried through my passage for the night just to get to bed or get back on the computer. In all honesty though, I felt a huge lack of Him through these past months. I read Psalm 73:3-6 last night and easily applied it to myself.

3 For I envied the arrogant
when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.
4 They have no struggles;
their bodies are healthy and strong.
5 They are free from common human burdens;
they are not plagued by human ills.
6 Therefore pride is their necklace;

I fell into a complacency of sorts. That attitude of "Oh, I'm getting by. I'm doing okay. Nothing's bad. Nothing's really AWESOME either, but it's all good. Limiting the access God has to my life isn't affecting me THAT much. I can live like this, I mean, tons of other people are. Look at them- they're doing great and they don't have God in their life." 

I was SO wrong. So so so wrong. And the funny thing is, I was aware at every moment that I could be living a more fulfilled life. I could go back to having that ever present peace and joy that I had had earlier in the year. But my own foolish pride led me to think that I could handle life better than Him. 

I'm glad I've been having a gradual change of heart back where I need to be these past few weeks. I just can't wait to be back into my Lakeview groove. I cherish my time there greatly- being surrounded by people my own age with a similar love for the Lord is so encouraging! 

This summer I started yanking back bits of my life for myself instead of letting them rest in His capable hands. It's so silly when I think about it, because life with God IS a vacation from this fallen world. 

To end this catching up piece, I don't want anyone to think that my beliefs have been shaken or I've questioned what the Lord has done in my life. If anything, the straying of my heart has brought me back to Him with a stronger, fiercer love and devotion which I find is what always comes out of these type of things. :)

I'm so excited to get back to Auburn and see what He has in store for me! 

23 Yet I am always with You;
You hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with Your counsel,
and afterward You will take me into glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but You?
And earth has nothing I desire besides You.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

-Psalm 73:23-26

^That just makes my heart soar. 

-Shelby :)